MY SPECIAL FRIEND

   I'm happy that I've got to know you , to be a part of your life and to be a big blessing in my world . Loving you is and will never be my mistake , that somehow in my life I felt so much better . And guess what , there is a best part 'bout loving you .. it is the mere thought that you make me smile and I don't know why you affect me this much . I always believe that you were my knight and shining armour and I'm your damsel in distress ... I always wanted to be always on your side , to make you smile when your sad and to heal your broken heart , but I guess that was only before though . We started as friends and maybe that's how we'll ever be .. I wanna wait you forever and make myself in those stories in Fantasy that one day the one you love with all your heart will come back to love you back .. But I guess , that 's not very realistic , and truly it's hard to wait in a corner for something that might never happen ...

    So this time I will try to play with fate and I will try to make very brave decision . I will drop my sword down for the first time and I will learn not to fight anymore , for if I will fight it's only who only get hurt in the end .. You know that LETTING GO and MOVING ON are the things I'm afraid of but now I'm tryin' to say goodbye and this is really hard for me , but I know for now , this is the best thing I can do for I will not get hurt anymore .. Even though I don't know how to Let go of you and  our memories .. If only you knew that the memories I had with you is the merriest thing that I have come to know ...

   They always say that if you love someone figh for what feel is right and don't learn to surrender .. but I have to this time .. Yes , I will be emotional , but not that much emotional .. I will wear my smile from the day that I will LET GO and MOVE ON .. for I don't want yo to see the things I hide ..

    I will always remember you not as the one who broke my fragile heart but the one who taught me how to live half alive in my shattered world .. Please just give me enough time and I will get over you and in this one sided love . I can never forget you , you've been an important and special picture in my life .. THANK YOU for the memories .. don't worry I'm gonna be alright , and that's for sure ..

   My Jayrald , these are my last words for you .. I WILL ALWAYS GO BACK TO THE DAYS WE SPEND TOGETHER , I WILL CHERISH THEM FOREVER , I LOVE YOU SO MUCH , I MISS YOU SO MUCH , ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU WHENEVER YOU NEED ME .. TAKE CARE